So I'll post more later... when these silly boys finally respond. But right now they're unscrambling it so I'll forgive them.

So Chantelle and I just asked Chris and Josh to Preference next week. Just to clarify- I asked Josh. She asked Chris. Just so there is zero confusion. The original plan was to put saran wrap over their door, like on the door frame so it would make a pocket in between the door and the saran wrap, and fill the pocket with popcorn. We also made a word puzzle (basically we just wrote out "Pop to Preference with me?" on little squares of paper, one letter per paper) and scattered those in the popcorn.
Except things never happen the way I want them too. We got there, and Chantelle noticed that their front door opens out not in, so instead of the popcorn falling in on them when they opened the door, they would just be saran wrapped in their apartment. So we went to look at the back door- same thing. So C had the brilliant idea of just throwing the paper and popcorn on the floor. And that's exactly what we did.
It's been over an hour, and they're just now figuring it out. I feel kind of bad, I hope they didn't have a ton of homework to do today. And we left a buttload of popcorn all over their Makeout Room floor. Whoops.
Oh. We did put a sign on their back door that said "To: Christopher Thomas Burns and Joshua Edward Schmidt". And just to throw Chris off, we threw "-MC" and the letters spelling "Just kidding" in the popcorn with the real messages. Chris is like morbidly afraid that MC is going to ask him. It was really mean and terrible for us to do, but absolutely hilarious too.
Shortly after they got it, I got a text from Chris saying, "Ok so far i have trim hope coin fester prep chew. somehow I just don't think that's it. i'll keep working".
I also got a picture text a little while ago from Josh asking if his phrase was anything close to the picture. The picture was his letters spelling out "Prop 8? -Haley". I DIED laughing. So did Chantelly. It was especially funny because yesterday he and I went to the Prop 8 call center over by University Mall and had a terrible experience– we called San Francisco. I know right? Death. And much cussing.
I think they're still working on MC's green phrase. I feel bad that it took this long. Next time, I'll know better. Sorry boys.

"Girls are invisible in this game."
But my dear friend- do you truly believe it?
With a closed mind and heart,
Your world only appears in blinding shades of pink.
Rose blossom blush salmon raspberry fuchsia coral magenta cherry.
Deception I admire. Deceit so honest, so true, so complete.
Your eyes lie low.
Why obsess in sticky sweet bubblegum
When there is so much green to be lived.
And loved.

I can't see your world...
It is what you make it- exactly as you want it to be.
Prim and proper, practically perfect in every way.
But does your ate also keep you ignorant and isolated?
Playing Hide and Seek
But where are we?
What is going on?
You don't care a bit.
You won't catch me around here.

Patiently I play along
Impatiently I wait for you to catch up.
To open your eyes
A New Day Has Come.
You are the only one blind enough to ignore it.
Your actions speak louder than your words.
But can you dance to your own rhythm?

Is it selfish to only want to hang out with some people and not to hang out with others? Seriously, like, sometimes I'm just not in the mood to hang out with certain people, but then there are other people that I could sit around at talk to or hang out with all day. Is that ridiculous? or mean? I don't know how I feel about that. I wish I could just want to hang out with everyone always, but it just doesn't work that way. There are some people I just feel more comfortable around and people I have more fun with. And I love them. And I just want to hang out with them all the time, no one else. But it is pretty selfish just to want them for myself I guess. I wish everyone weren't so busy all the time. This sounds like complete infatuation. It's sincerely not. It's friendship, but it's more than that too. They're like my family.


"The Pros and Cons of Breathing" © MC

Definition: Stress, busy, worry, tired,
Lack of sleep, lack of interest, lack of time,
Surplus of money. It's all too much.
Key holes, potholes, mountains, and football,
Shells in white cheddar with blue satin sashes.
Snowflakes that loom and bring fear and loud crashes.

Definition: Almost, so very close to everything I've wanted to become,
Everything you needed me to be, everyone is watching now.
As it shatters in to a hundred thousand pieces
Upon moochers and angels and demons and rock stars.
The light slowly creeps through what used to exist
In the Land of Plenty, no milk, no honey,
No waves or ocean breeze or sunset remains.

Definition: Painful, almost deteriorating,
In and out, up and down, Hot and Cold,
Wishing... hoping.... praying..... waiting.
Sabotage never seemed to promising.
If bruises mean joy, blisters and bleeding
Love in all its worst forms becomes bitterly apparent with you around.

Definition: Families Can Be Together Forever
But this family ends when the trees are silenced.
If you could only see.
I've altered pictures and included myself
In all the best and worst ways You've altered my life.

Definition: Selfish.
Concept: If actions speak louder than words, you should have heard me by now.

Okay so yesterday morning we, as in me, C, H, MC, and Josh, went to the Provo Temple to do baptisms. My cousin Emmaleigh met us there because she lives like 3 1/2 steps away from the temple. It was a really cool experience. First of all, I've never lived this close to any temple, so only walking thirty minutes was nice. Second, I've never just gone to the temple on my own- we always went as a ward or had an appointment. So we kind of wait for like an hour and a half in between the confirmations and the actual baptisms. And poor Josh.... Because there were so few guys there, he was just pulled from out of the line and was baptized almost an hour before we went. And he waited, in the back of the room, all by himself, for us. Awesome huh?
It seems like anytime I go to the temple, I always pay more attention to the names of the people we're doing work for than anything else. Like, I noticed that C was confirmed for a girl with the last name "Delgado", which, from my many years of spanish training (haha ya right four years of high school spanish doesn't teach you ANYTHING), I knew meant "skinny". Which I still think is a funny last name. And one of the ladies I was confirmed for had like six names, one of which was "Corazon de Jesus Cristo" (translated to mean Heart of Jesus Christ), which I thought was kind of cool. And one of the two (yes only two) women I was baptized for was named Elizabeth Watson. I don't know why I remember that one.... Pretty generic name if you ask me. But it stuck with me.
The whole time during the confirmations, I kept thinking about my grandpa. Thinking about how maybe he is teaching these people that I'm doing work for about the gospel right at this very moment. Kind of cool to think about. But I miss him. A lot. I know Friday is going to be really hard for me. I can't even think about it right now.
On a lighter note, last night we, as in me, K, Josh, Chris, and Kevin, went to Brick Oven for dinner last night. It was uh-maze-ing! Soooo good. And just way good to feel like I was actually outside of my little bubble that is BYU life, even if we were still on campus. Seriously, that was the first time that I've ventured outside of my square of campus from like the Conference Center to the Clyde Building to the Cannon Center to the Testing Center. Sad. But it was really fun. We walked past Rape Hill and made jokes about it all night. Then, when Chris left his pizza on our table after we left, and he went back and got it, he was all 'concerned' that we didn't go in with him and said he got raped (TOTALLY as a joke guys). Then I said, "c'mon guys! we're not even at Rape Hill yet!" and just as I said that, a group of like 6 or 7 other people came in the restaurant and were laughing their heads off at what I said. Taken out of context it would have sounded SO bad, which is probably why they were laughing. So it's on our quote wall now. :)
So about my eating habits, which is where the first part of my title of this post comes it. We eat strange things around this apartment. Like, I eat Pasta-Roni for almost every meal. It's that good. And cheap! Or soup. It seems like I always have endless amounts of soup in my cupboard, and it never goes away!! But Kenna and I bought these really amazing Keebler cookies. She got regular striped kind, but I got these heavenly Fudge Shoppe Caramel Filled ones (I'm looking at the box right now). They're only half way gone because I ration them every day. And Wheat Thins. I eat about 7 everyday because they make my breath smell bad because they're Parmesian Basil flavored so they're lasting me forever. And C.... She eats Goldfish. Probably like a box every day or two. I introduced her to Tomato Soup and Goldfish the other day and I still think she owes me big time because she eats that more than anything else. Except maybe Easy Mac or Spaghettios.H drinks milk like nobody's business. She literally goes through a gallon a week (or faster). And lemon yogurt. Which is weird. K eats lots of potatoes. Like she puts them in everything. Usually with corn and some sort of meat. And ketchup lol. But only when Kevin is around. MC eats lots of Mexican food and eggs. And she is veeeery particular about her ranch dressing. She won't have anything other than Hidden Valley. Personally I can't tell the difference, but whatever, I've got my own so I use that. And I don't even think they sell Hidden Valley at the Creamery.... E.... umm..... she makes lots of dessets or breakfast foods. And she cooks when her friends are over a lot. Which is fun for her and us and them. I eat lots of corn. At one point I had six cans of corn in my cupboard (no I didn't actually buy that much, Heidi didn't want hers because she said she'd never eat it). Now I think I'm down to two.
Longest post ever. Sorry. Kind of random. I'll post more frequently I promise. But in all honesty, I wish this was more private. I kind of have a lot to say about some other certain subjects that I'm sure you could guess and I'm sure my roommates could tell you aaaaaaaaaaaaaaall about. But I'm not going to for fear of certain people finding it. :P
College theme songs! (not even because they apply to my life right now, just because we sing them. Aaaaaaaall the time.) "Do You Know" by Enrique Iglesias and "Viva la Vida" by Coldplay

So this is it. I'm done after today. I leave for Utah tomorrow morning at like 6. Wow. It's weird to be leaving. And like, Lauren's already gone, Jennifer left for USC, Diana is out of town, Kjrstin just left to go out of town too, so Trisha's here to say goodbye... Weird!
I fit all of my life in about 7 boxes, plus a suitcase. Can you believe it I had to fit MY ENTIRE DRESSER into a SUITCASE because my dad wouldn't let me have anymore boxes. But I did it. I'm impressed by it anyways.
So my mom and I drive out tomorrow, stay at Aunt Jodi's house tonight, and then I start to unpack for an hour Monday morning and leave for Aspen Grove for the Foundation of Leadership conference. OH! And we might be swinging by the Allred's for lunch/visit when we get to Vegas. So that'll be fun. Then my dad is driving out with the Smith's on like Thursday or Friday so he can go to the football game (lol) and he and Mom leave Sundayish I think.
It's all very exciting, but I'm also really sad to leave. Talking to Kjrstin last night made me very nostalgic of everything we've been through and everything else that has gone on in our lives, especially throughout high school. I found all my old yearbooks, but I haven't had the heart to look through them because I just know it'll make me really sad.
But I'm really glad that I know people out there too. Like Aubre and Hayley and Ashlyn and Eliza and Rachel and Kristin and Emmaleigh and Mandie and of course my sweet new roommates that I've yet to meet. But I'm really going to miss my family. I can't even think about that. About not being here for choir concerts and baseball games and back-to-school nights and elementary school carnivals and 2nd grade patriotic concerts and oral language and dances and birthdays and things like that.
There's still so many things that I feel like I need to do before I go to bed tonight. So I'll write more soon. But as for Bakersfield, this is it! :/ Good luck everyone! I'll miss you dearly!
New Song for today: Fade Away by Celine Dion (thanks Mandie!)

Oh my goodness so for all the Twihards like me, we have 4 1/2 HOURS left until the final Twilight book comes out!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I made a shirt. Yes I'm a dork, I'm fully aware of that. And I'm going to the Borders Midnight Release Party in about an hour an a half with Abby and Emma Luthi, Kjrstin, and Melanie. Except for the stupid fact that I didn't preorder the book because I didn't think I would want it this badly. The plan was just to go to Walmart in the morning like when it first opens and buy it because it's cheaper there. Except now I'm reeeeeeeeally regreting that. Ugh. I'm dumb. So I'm hoping that my shirt (which still isn't finished by the way) just turns out to be bomb-awesome and I win their homemade t-shirt contest and get a free copy of the book at the Borders Party.
I also found out today that Eliesa, one of my five roommates for the fall, is signed up for Foundations of Leadership too! Yay! Friends! lol I was talking to Mary-Celeste about it today, and I kind of realized I have NO idea what this conference thing even is! So I'm glad Eliesa's going too, that way if it's completely awful we can just cry together. :P Or if it's really really good, we'll have a jumpstart on roommate bonding and friendliness. It's a win win either way. Go team.
AAAH! I need this book. I kind of like stop breathing when I think about it. Haha I was at work today playing Mahjong on my iPod as usual, but I was listening to the Mitch Hansen Band, which a the Twilight-inspired band. They kind of suck, and all the songs are SO beyond cheesy, but it makes me laugh and it DEFINITELY got me in the Twilight mood. Their singing is pretty awful on most songs, and their guitar playing is mediocre. But props to them for creativity and being able to actually WRITE music. I can't do that. So, I guess I probably shouldn't be dissing them.... Sorry Mitch Hansen Band. They're really cool I didn't mean to be so judgmental and harsh. Go team! :P
New song for today: Walking on Air by Kerli

So, to be completely honest, I'm extremely nervous to go away to school. I primarily started this blog (a bit early) to post updates about college. So here's the first- I'm scared!! I'm afraid I'll get the wrong classes or not bring/buy everything I need or not get along with my roommates. :/ I'm not so keen on major life changes either. I've lived here almost my whole life.... moving away to a completely new state, living with new people, new friends, new WEATHER (potentially the scariest part), new boys, new wards, new callings, new responsibilites, is there anything that ISN'T changing in August?! Ugh.