Is it selfish to only want to hang out with some people and not to hang out with others? Seriously, like, sometimes I'm just not in the mood to hang out with certain people, but then there are other people that I could sit around at talk to or hang out with all day. Is that ridiculous? or mean? I don't know how I feel about that. I wish I could just want to hang out with everyone always, but it just doesn't work that way. There are some people I just feel more comfortable around and people I have more fun with. And I love them. And I just want to hang out with them all the time, no one else. But it is pretty selfish just to want them for myself I guess. I wish everyone weren't so busy all the time. This sounds like complete infatuation. It's sincerely not. It's friendship, but it's more than that too. They're like my family.


"The Pros and Cons of Breathing" © MC

Definition: Stress, busy, worry, tired,
Lack of sleep, lack of interest, lack of time,
Surplus of money. It's all too much.
Key holes, potholes, mountains, and football,
Shells in white cheddar with blue satin sashes.
Snowflakes that loom and bring fear and loud crashes.

Definition: Almost, so very close to everything I've wanted to become,
Everything you needed me to be, everyone is watching now.
As it shatters in to a hundred thousand pieces
Upon moochers and angels and demons and rock stars.
The light slowly creeps through what used to exist
In the Land of Plenty, no milk, no honey,
No waves or ocean breeze or sunset remains.

Definition: Painful, almost deteriorating,
In and out, up and down, Hot and Cold,
Wishing... hoping.... praying..... waiting.
Sabotage never seemed to promising.
If bruises mean joy, blisters and bleeding
Love in all its worst forms becomes bitterly apparent with you around.

Definition: Families Can Be Together Forever
But this family ends when the trees are silenced.
If you could only see.
I've altered pictures and included myself
In all the best and worst ways You've altered my life.

Definition: Selfish.
Concept: If actions speak louder than words, you should have heard me by now.